God Within

Practice Love, Devotion & Surrender

Mother Pours Forth

Mother Pours Forth

Mother pours forth from me
It is bliss at times, some time
Just commonplace being free.
But hearing Mother's bells chime.

I am so drunk with love divine
I can only ramble words on paper.
My sweet, I honor you with a rhyme.
Without you I am but a pauper.

Fire, FIRE, FIRE consuming me
Bursting forth from my spine
It is nothing you can see
And to explain it I must decline.

Bliss beyond sex and it is
So sublime, prior to the witness.

From "Poems and Ramblins of a God-intoxicated Yogi" by Jan Esmann

From "Handbook for Shaktipat Siddha Yoga Initiates" by Jan Esmann:

"Shaktipat initiation grants you grace of an automatic sadhana (spiritual practice and path) known as Shaktipat Siddha Yoga. Other traditions give it other names: Siddha Yoga (Perfect Yoga) and Kundalini Maha Yoga (the Greatest Yoga of the Awakened Kundalini). Rather than you reaching out to the Self, the Self now reaches out to you. This is grace and is the hallmark of shaktipat, no matter what shaktipat lineage you are initiated into. It has to be given by an enlightened Siddha. It is also perfect because all other yoga lineages are naturally and automatically fulfilled through the grace of the Divine Mother, Shakti. You cannot learn Siddha Yoga by study or get it through your own effort."

Practice

Love, Devotion & Surrender

"These three qualities are very important on our path. You should develop love for God in whatever form of God that appeals the most to your heart, be it Mother Divine, Virgin Mary, Jesus, Krishna or whoever. Love, devotion and surrender come in the mentioned order. Without love you cannot feel true devotion. Without true devotion, you cannot surrender to Mother Shakti. As you progress on this path these qualities will grow in you. Shakti is the giver of devotion, the giver of love and bliss. It is impossible not to surrender to Her once She showers those upon you and awakens them in you. The more attached you are to your ignorance, the tougher the process of merging with Mother will be. That is why practicing love, devotion and surrender is alpha and omega. To be ignorant is to be devoid of bliss. Give up you ignorance and offer it to Mother. Offer your mind to Mother. Let everything you do be an act of service to Mother, an act of devotion."

Meditation

KRIYA PRANAYAMA

Calmly follow your breath. Do not try to manipualte it to be longer than what it spontenously is. Do not do ujjayi pranayama unless it comes natural or you are sure it really imporves the practice. Focus on the Sushumna nadi that goes from the perineum to the top of the head through the center of the spine.

On the in-breath sense energy rising up inside Sushumna to the top of the scull. If you do not make it all the way, don't bother or think you are doing something wrong. But try to move energy a little faster sometime in the future when it feels comfortable, so you can get it all the way up.

On the out-breath sense energy descending down to the perineum again.

There is a somewhat peculiar mantra one should use:

On the in-breath mentally think, or merely remember the mantra hong. You can also pronounce it hung. Hong|Hung has the power to awaken kundalini.

On the out-breath mentally think the mantra sauh (pronounced like the English word "saw"). Sauh has the power of activating kundalini awakened by hong.

This is the secret hamsa practice that Lord Bhairava (Shiva) hints at the very end of the Vijnanabhairava Tantra. The mantra hong is an ancient Tantric bija-mantra that stimulates kundalini to awaken.

KUNDALINI KRIYA

The practice consists of three methods, which you switch between. When you reach a palteau, you switch to one of other methods, aqnd when that reaches a plateau, you switch back to the first method or to the next method, and so forth. Back and forth between the three main techniques, but all the while having just one objective: To intensify Shakti more and more and to merge with it.

1. Body breathing

As you observe the breathing, feel the entire body. It is as if the sense of touch built into the skin senses the skin itself. Now feel on the in-breath that you expand out through the skin. On the out-breath simply let go. Another way of saying it, is that on the in-breath you feel the Shakti growing in intensity and size. On the out-breath you let go of any control or duality and merge with Shakti in and around the body. As this continues, you will feel the body's limits dissolve, while the feeling of Shakti becomes more tangible than the feeling of the body. Do this for as long as Shakti gets stronger, and you merge more and more. When it reaches a plateau, switch to spinal breathing.

2. Spinal breathing

On the in-breath, feel that you are moving energy up the entire spine at once, from the perineum to the top of the head. You can think of the Divine Mother as you do this and can remember the mantra Om (or Am) as you do this. On the out-breath, feel that you are radiating energy, or lovebliss, in all directions from the brain and scull. You think of Mother Divine and can remember the mantra Kreem (or Ma) as you breathe out. But these words are really not the most important. The most important thing is to feel Shakti grow and to merge with Shakti. Shakti is Mother Divine (Amma). Do this as long as Shakti gets stronger and you merge more and more. When it reaches a plateau, return to full body breathing. If you feel the energy pressure in the head becomes unpleasantly high, replace this practice with Kriya Pranayama. Kreem is the seed mantra for Mother Kali, the destroyer of ignorance.

3. Merging inflow and outflow

Here you do not follow the breath, but sense Shakti flows into the entire body and radiates from the entire body at the same time. This can be a rather paradoxical feeling, but once you geth the knack of it, it is a very powerful meditation. Another way to explain it is to say you should sense radiating love to everything around you and receiving love from everything around you at the same time.

Merging in Lovebliss

When you experience being filled with Shakti or Lovebliss, then let go of your methods and merge with it. This is the goal of all practices and methods. No matter what practice you are doing, if you are on the verge of transcending I-ness and merging, then let go of the method|practice and merge in Lovebliss.

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